Leave me alone!

The tension in my body, walking around with clenched fists, and furrowed brows, shows my frustration. I feel a sense of sadness, knowing that my struggling with managing my emotions and keeping my thoughts to myself.

It is 1972, I am seven years old, and when I look at myself, the little Monique, I feel a strong desire to reach out to her, offer comfort, and create a safe space for her to express herself. Just because of my child's silence and internal struggles, I feel a deep longing to connect with little Monique and help her feel understood and supported.

Approaching her with patience, understanding, and empathy can make a significant difference in helping her open up and feel more secure in sharing her thoughts and feelings.


As little Monique decided to do it all by myself, because basically and especially after my sexual abuse when I was six, which impacted my whole life.

- I wanted to do it all by myself -

I could trust myself, and I could not trust others obviously, not even my parents when this happened to me.

They never talked about it, yes, in a practical way, but never emotionally guided me. So, the belief that I had to only to trust myself and never trust another person, became a huge thing in my life.

Not only with men but also with other people. I was always very paranoïd that people had bad intentions, and even when they didn’t have them, I reacted in a way that was too much of a stretch for me to believe they had the best intentions.

That ruined a lot of trust, just by my own belief!

Fast forward to now, I am so much more open to other people's leadership, to others who are better at things I want to learn more about, people who have more of what I don't have. Any other skill or knowledge that I don’t have yet?

That’s why I feel the attraction better in my body and can I show great respect for that.
The greater the dream, the bigger you have to be. More healing is needed Spiritually, Emotionally which will show up Financially.

So, if you don’t start working on the childhood patterns that block you, you’ll never feel emotionally free, and not being emotionally free means unhealthy relationships and bad relationships means, no (consistent) money or access to money, no honey and no business. And don’t even think about scaling or creating an online course! And that means, No financial freedom….🤷🏼‍♀️

Up to you, what do you prefer?
Financial freedom or HAVING to work until 75 years old, what appeals more to you?